*Twenty Nine*

Golden Birthday

This year I turned 29 on the 29th… my golden birthday! This is something I have been looking forward to for a couple years now. I’ve had a deep expectancy in my soul of what this year will hold. My golden year. This may not be your thing and that’s okay but humor me here, I promise I’m going somewhere with this! 🙂 I have no idea what’s in store over the next year but I  have been proclaiming for at least 2 years now, that good things are coming… BIG things are coming. Could this be the year business takes off? Could this be the year we win the lottery?  😉 This could be the year chains are broken. Maybe this is the year I “finally” get pregnant?? Who knows?! I definitely don’t but what I DO know is that God has spent the better part of the last 2-3 years preparing me and shaping me. Like gold… refining me in the fire.

It’s an analogy we are all pretty familiar with. Gold gets refined in the extreme heat of the fire. Welp.. that’s me. (And you, honestly) The Gold…. There in the fire being pushed, shaped, chipped away at, all for the purpose of shining brighter than you did before. No, the last couple years have not been bad but they have been HARD. Very hard. But along the way there have been SO MANY reminders that one day God’s promises would be fulfilled. This was not an easy thing to trust in. God’s plan can be difficult to follow because in my tiny little human mind it doesn’t resemble what I consider “a plan” at all! For me a plan resembles a checklist, beautifully written on a cute piece of stationary from Target, with step by step items to mark off and accomplished. Well I’m pretty sure God’s plan looks like a rabbit trail with lots of twists and turns and cliffs to jump with mountains to climb and valleys to stumble through where one questions literally everything they’ve ever believed. Why…. Because the things I trusted in on the beginning of this journey were not meant to be trusted in. (More on that at a later date) This is meant to be a happy post!

So here I sit just a couple days in- to the year I’ve labeled my GOLDEN YEAR and I am so expectant of what’s ahead. I am so encouraged. I’m coming off of a weekend filled with celebration, kind words, and so many amazing memories with incredible friends and family. What’s next? No idea! But I am pretty pumped to find out! 

Have you ever felt like you’ve been in the fire for a while? Maybe longer than expected? Has God put promises in your heart that you have not yet seen with your eyes? What are those promises? I’d love to hear from you!