The BIG Announcement

Being a mom is something I have dreamed about most of my life. I come from a long line of fierce women and mothers. I grew up dreaming of carrying that torch. Over the years, a few setbacks made me wonder if that would be a reality for me. A little over 2 years ago I clearly heard the Lord speak to my heart that it was time to stop using birth control. I panicked. In my human eyes, that particular time did NOT seem like the right time to be bringing a baby into the world. I wrestled God on it for a while in my head. But did it anyway, even though I was very unsure. 

Kyle and I were in a time in our relationship that was requiring huge growth from each of us and per usual- that growth was quite uncomfortable. It really didn’t seem like the ideal time to be having a baby. I had convinced myself that since God was telling me to do it now, it meant a baby would happen quick….. hahahaha. Okay. Sorry. Had to laugh at myself there. Fast forward a year…. Still no baby and the growth in our marriage was even more intense. We were being tested- requiring me to step more and more out of my comfort zone. I questioned God again but did my best to remain faithful to the words He had spoken to my heart before.

Over the last 2 years what made absolutely NO sense to me then makes perfect sense to me now…. I had to learn to trust God with every little part of my life even the deep parts that stay hidden- my marriage, my job, my family, my hopes, my dreams and even the promises He made long ago that had not yet been fulfilled. I continued to move forward. We were open to any way God might bring a family our direction. We celebrated those around us that made announcements, refusing to allow bitterness to have any space in our heart. We encouraged others on the same journey and all the while praying that our day would come.

AND FINALLY….. Today, I get to announce that Baby Higgy is on the way!!! Coming December 2019! Kyle and I are absolutely OVER THE MOOOOOON!! Now is the time.

Is there ever a “right” time to have a baby? Most of you would answer NO to that question. However, my answer is a resounding YES! The right time is the time God chooses for YOU. I’m confident this is the absolute most perfect time for Kyle and me to be bringing Baby Higgy into this world otherwise God wouldn’t have chosen now. Is my life perfect? No. Do I have it all together? NOPE! Have I already figured out the pre-school situation? No. (Feel free to send all recommendations. I hear you’re supposed to get on some sort of imaginary list as soon as your child is conceived) 😉 But what I do have figured out is that His plan is ALWAYS better than mine. He wants good for our lives. He will weave your life into this beautiful story if you will let Him. 

As I sit here in my bed eating my 23,654th pack of crackers (sorry Kyle… that means more crumbs) and sipping a Sprite I am absolutely overwhelmed that God chose me to be this little baby’s (who is the size of a plum today btw) mommy. I encourage you… chin up sweet girl. There is power in the waiting. He is preparing you. Refining you- making you everything He needs you to be for your future. I can promise you that your future holds GOOD. That’s His promise to us. Lean into Him. Let him wipe those tears and dust you off for the rest of the journey. There is GOLD ahead. Keep going.